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I am A Worrier and Even When Everything is Fine, I Look for Things to Worry About
Today is Sunday and I should be relaxing, but instead, I am worrying.
Being an adult has not been easy for me. I worry about money all the time. And with this pandemic, I have been worrying about getting covid for more than a year now.
Living in another country makes me worry about not giving enough love and affection to my parents, my closest friends and my family members, especially my grandmas. I also worry about not building strong relationships in my life in London, besides with my boyfriend.
This weekend was also my parents birthday (my mum was born on the 2nd of April and my dad was born on the 4th of April) and my worries just increased. I also worry that I don’t call my grandma enough or text my friends enough. Basically, I worry about what I am doing is not enough.
Even to leave my house every day I need to check and recheck and check one more time to make sure everything is unplugged, all the lights switched off, and the door and windows closed. I need to make sure everything is under control because otherwise, I worry. It takes me more than 10 minutes to be able to walk away with the certainty that everything is fine and I don’t have to worry about not having a home anymore when I come back. Crazy, isn’t it?
