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If You Aren’t Feeling 2022, This Is For You.
You are not alone.
I am not excited about 2022. And if I could, I would try to stop it from arriving, but I can’t. As a human being, I don’t have the power to stop time, but how I wish I could.
The change of a year has always been heavy for me. I remember being on a beach in Brazil around my teens during a New Years Eve trying to hear about my destiny with a sort of “shaman” while everyone around me was celebrating, singing and watching the fireworks. A new year never made me excited; it always made me scared. From a very young age, it seems like I can’t enjoy the present moment but only worry about the future. I know that. This is who I am.
The past two years have been hard for me. And I am not happy, far from it. I actually have been feeling that my depression is coming back. It feels like right now, everyone is happy but me. And I know that’s not true. There are plenty of miserable people around the world. We don’t want to be miserable. It’s just stronger than us. And miserable people have different things to be miserable about.
As I grow older, I am more aware of my feelings and the need for respect for them. I need to respect how I feel and not try to change it. So here is me respecting how I feel: I am not happy with the change of the year. I am not looking forward to 2022…
