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Read This If You Don’t Like Yourself
We are a work in progress, and maybe one day we will get there…
I recently moved houses, and my new place still has lots of work to get done. For the past two to three weeks, I have been feeling rough. I have big curly hair, which is a lot of work. My nails were looking terrible, and I needed a good shave. Finally, today I had a mini spa day, and I feel a bit better about myself. I am shaved, my cuticles are cut, and my hair is clean and moisturised.
Most of the time, I don’t like myself. I wish I could be someone else. And I do love myself, but it’s different to love and to like. We can love something and not like it.
I am 31 years old, and I have lots of good things in my life to be happy about and proud of, but instead, I do feel like that person that never fits in. My hair is dry, my skin has big pores, I have fat under my armpits, and I also have fat in my lower belly.
My hair is a good thermometer of how I am feeling about myself. If my hair is shining, it’s because I am feeling good, but it takes a lot to get curly hair to shine, at least for me. Having curly hair is a full-time job. Lately, I am just struggling with it. Sometimes, I think it would be better just to shave off all of it.
