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This Pandemic Is Making Me Crazy
Probably, only crazier.
Ps. This article can be triggering.
It’s only the 6th of January, 2022 and I already had two panic attacks this year. One was on the first day of the year while hiking with my partner in our local forest. I didn’t have hiking shoes, so I went with my running ones. Everything was fine until it wasn’t. After hiking for an hour and a half, I started feeling tired. The longer my shoes were getting dirty, the more I was getting agitated until I felt my whole lower body itch, and I couldn’t stop scratching it while hyperventilating. So my calm partner made me sit down while repeating that everything was going to be okay. But in my head, it wasn’t. I calmed down, and we left.
My second panic attack was today. Lately, I don’t really feel like waking-up, because, at the moment, I am having a hard time remembering the last time I felt happy. And I have started a new diet, and now I am tracking my calories, which it’s pretty stressful. So after getting out of bed, just in time to make breakfast and start working, I started preparing a banana pancake, a recipe that I had made many times before but never realised how many calories oat flour has.
After measuring everything, I placed it in a hot pan, and after less than a minute, I smelled burn. I tried to pretend it was okay, but it…
